* Desires race beyond the capacity to realize.
After coming out of two dot.com's (GomoTech & HelloBrain) erasures in 2002, I pursued the somedays. You know: "Some day I'm going to become pianist", "Someday I'm going to build my dream house", "Someday I'm going to sail the California coast", "Someday I'm going to be a filmmaker." Well for me it was the last one, "...be a filmmaker."
Reading in Judith Weston's book "Directing Actors..." that the director who understands how to work with actors has an advantage, I decided to spend a period of time being an actor. I took classes at the Jean Shelton acting studio from about 2002-2003, had a role in Durang's play "Sister Mary Ignatius Explains It All For You" and acted in small parts for indie films and TV shows. I found to, somewhat my surprise, I really enjoyed acting. The acting craft and how to use yourself as an instrument of art and performance is fascinating. In time I had new ideas of performing which I tested out in acting gigs.
At the same time I focused more on writing short scenes, shooting them with actors and participating in the film events of Cinemasports and The National Film Challenge. My focus shifted to editing. In 2004 after being a PC programmer since 1985, I relented and got a Mac G5 with the Production Suite. And as 2005 arrived, I kept an eye on a new phenomenon, videoblogging.
Finally in August, I went to a Meet the Vloggers presentation at the San Francisco Apple Store. The enthusiasm, openness and inclusion of those involved related directly to my interest in film/video/media. So I jumped in. But as I made videos, spending a day to edit a four minute piece, put it up on my vlog and waited to see responses, I missed developing software. At the same time I began to envision different ways to view and edit video on the net.
So now I've come back to software development with developing net software for video. However I am finding the motion of prior work and recognition in videoblogging holding some of my focus. With inertia in doing software development . I read the group participatory vlog I'm in, EvilVlog, habitually -- commenting here and there, waiting to see which responses come in. I put up images on flickr and watch the number of views and new comments.
We are biological creatures that can take time to switch and train neural cell connections, putting in place brain to eye to hand coordination skills. So while my desire races, change moves at it's stride...
*Image from invisible-temple's photos